Everyday I put up with so much crap. I tell myself each day, I am going to say something, it is going to end, I am not going to take it anymore. Then by the end of the day, I have given up on myself, quit life basically, to in turn, start taking the crap all over again.
With my wife, there is so much she complains about, so much I have done wrong or do wrong. I bust my ass to not do those things for a.) So that she stops complaining, and b.) So that she can somewhat be happy. I mean I really try.
Then there is the one thing that I complain about. Intimacy! We never get that "alone time." Basically it just happens once a month. We never cuddle, she never lets me touch her, she never touches me. The thing is, the is all that I complain about. I bust my ass to not do the things that she complains about, and she puts out zero effort. She zero intimacy, and yet she thinks she still has the right to treat me like she does.
We are Christians. Not perfect Christians, but we attend church, bible studies, Sunday school, fellowship. We both believe that Jesus Christ is our personal lord and savior. We live someone what good Christian lives except for when it comes to our actual love life.
So today I am going to start this blog, not as a matter of evidence, but a record of events, so that I can go back in a couple of years and view the things I put up with and allowed myself to cave into so that maybe this will make me a stonger person.
Favorite bible versus 1 John 4:4-5, read and believe!
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